Forgiveness

Here’s a tale on the book I was talking about. A novel of forgiveness.

Before I closed my eyes, I began to hear my mother’s voice.
She was telling a story she had often told me when I was a
child, not realizing it was a story about me.

“A boy and a girl were insanely in love with each other,” my
mother’s voice was saying. “They decided to become engaged.
And that’s when presents are always exchanged.

The boy was poor—his only worthwhile possession was a
watch he’d inherited from his grandfather. Thinking about his
sweetheart’s lovely hair, he decided to sell the watch in order
to buy her a silver barrette.
The girl had no money herself to buy him a present. She
went to the shop of the most successful merchant in the town
and sold him her hair. With the money, she bought a gold
watchband for her lover.

When they met on the day of the engagement party, she
gave him the wristband for a watch he had sold, and he gave
her the barrette for the hair she no longer had.”

Later, champion!

Hi. Been quite a while^^. Well this chick is currently in her last year of high school and is getting focus for university preparations, uh-yeah. Been reading a lot of Mochtar Lubis lately, and that’s good.

 

Mochtar Lubis (March 7, 1922 – July 2, 2004)

Actually all these years I haven’t been quite a fan of books in Indonesian, because they talk weird but then I realized I just hated translated books (is that still a good news?) and I have been quite captivated by Indonesian literatures — well to begin my collections were all Moh. Hatta, Ir. Soekarno, M. Natsir and friends — that I got from my grandpa and it feels good to finally read some good books again.

One book was even so good, I had a dream about it!

(Harimau! Harimau! c. 1975)

Well that is all about books, now on the brighter side of my life, I can now easily wake up in the morning feeling light and care-free because I’ve let that whatever-this-is-to-him go, in order to avoid frustration, end of discussion.

I’ve come to learn that love is a pain in the ass, and I just can’t take all that, nu-uh not now. So I’ve decided to shove him away. Well we’re still friends, naturally, since we’re in the same circle of friends, and it feels awesome. It feels nice to be a bro again. Not a whiny, anxious, old-fashioned chick who constantly worry about her imaginary future and delusional relationship with a certain guy.

I asked God to give me peace and serenity of the mind and just drive him away as far as He could. And he give me more: A rebound. Obviously I’m not planning on blabbing about this new fling, but he is one of the people that I highly respect and has faith in, and we have millions in common.

So it has come to this. I guess after 2 years of on-and-offs with you, I’ve dive myself into the complete turn-off and I ain’t gonna come back soon.

Later, champion!

Happy Cakeday Happy People! Vol. II

PRAISE TO THE UNIVERSE!

I’M FUCKING FREE! Mother of Thor! I have never write anything as freely as I am right now I’m just soooo excited!!! Or maybe it was the coffee? Anywho I’m not letting myself go over the hype-O-meter bar heh-heh.

So summats are done! Still got fcking remeds to go through 3-/ (boy I swear a lot when in excitement) OH! And of course I still owe you how my birthday went. I had a blast, best birthday so far. My friends got me a birthday CAKE 😀 Oh sweet momma it was yummy and chocolicious! but unfortunately I didn’t take any photos (duh who’s the genius one) I can assure you that it was NOT IMAGINARY because my friend Hana was the conspirator. I remember in our first year here I gave her a surprise birthday cake, and this year she did the same. Well, minus the flour and the eggs, cus she already done that last year.

OH and also, remember Happy Cakeday, Happy People! ? I mentioned my dream birthday gifts, vaguely (suuure, vaguely…) Well I know this is like too shallow or something but I am and will always be dying for another Gossip Girl books, and EKI (after doing a spin off with Faiz for hiding my bag) fulfilled my wildest dream (okay I’ve gone too far) by giving me a sweet birthday card and THIS:

Notice the B and S rings on their fingers?

He is the best!!!!!!!!!! IN FACT, today is actually his 1st anniversary with his girlfriend the you lady that everyone adore, Aza. I can’t believe it’s been a year! :O Congrats you guys! You two deserve the very best, and that might be the reason you’re together in the first place, I love you both and hope u guys can have a future together. :*

And OF COURSE the best thing PDL can gave me is being mad at me and I was like pretending not to care but I can’t so it did bugged me and I found out that it was just an act on my birthday-_- DUH, IT WAS A LIE.

Ya, so I guess those are the things that you’ve missed on my birthday. It was a sure thing memorable sweet seventeen, with people I love the most involved. Now I’m up to do good things with my life, me, my parents, brothers, friends, others, and God. And I guess that’s good enough for a start.

P.S. Just an FYI that I’m still accepting late birthday gifts :p teeheehee.

So Much Win!

Just another day at Teksound, discussing about our alma jacket …

Oh Ducun, why.

They’re random, they’re cute, they’re majorly boys (DUH) and like you won’t have a day with them spent like without you having a laugh that cracks your butt, like seriously! I love them and that’s why I’m dedicating my sophomore year for them, Teksound. Also good to know that we can still see each other in another year, so here comes the fun cooker.

And gosh it’s barely a holiday but I’m treating myself as if it’s summertime already. Later on Mid-Exam I’d be like “OH GOD WHY,” But HA! As what they say, “Boaaam…”

Everyone’s saying “BOAM,” these days and now I can see just why.

Speaking of holidays, I just need more and more. Like in school days I woke up every morning with my body in tense and stressed and I can’t live like that. Somedays I just rushed and worked and I didn’t feel like already missing out a week of circling. And there goes my scores. Haaa-haaa do I want to become jobless or what. Someone please make me a physic whiz in a night ;_;

YAA not that kind of a whiz…

Anyways, break news! My dad is sooo giving me his old Blackberry since he got a new one (Boo00…) But only until I gave my room a make over like I need to get rid of piles and piles of school shits like the old paperworks and stuffs, turns out of all the papers I keep in my room, almost 2/3 of them were junk. Gee, no wonder my room’s a mess. Thanks dad for encouraging me to clean up my room! Now if you generously hand me the Blackberry please? Finally, after a year. Thaaaat’s right 😉

 P.S. Going to have a studying spin-off with my buds, wish me luck!

Happy Cakeday Happy People!

Well my search is over!

Even forever alone is cheering for me!

I’m in an extremely good mood (Pfffft coming from the girl whose last post was galav) Here’s the thing … For weeks I’ve been searching for a cardigan, and simply the right cardigan. But none has really satisfy my silly taste :/ one too short, too long, too holey, too tight, too gay, too Granma-ish and stuffs. They might sound retarded but  just with the right tone, it’s definitely not.

And today I (finally) FOUND IT! Thank you mom for your eyes on this teehee. Loving the color indigo and now can’t wait to wear it to school. (Duhh *rolling eyes*) Well of course! It’s because my class’ aircon is sometimes a bitch. One moment the fan is toooo strong and a moment later she (Oh its a “she” now… *nods*) practically put a troll face and gives us a bloody free sauna, but even when it’s cold, it’s just too hot to wear a jacket!!!! 😦 (First world problems) SO that is why this girl this stoked for just getting a new cardigan. 😀

Anyways these 2 days are the birthdays of the 2 people I love, G andd PDL! Wuwuwuwu happy birthday! Be sure to blow the candles right!  

That’s a cake for each one of you, teeheehee

Soooo like anyways, to G: Happy birthdayy dufus! Here’s to another year being my adorkable brother. And PDL: I wish you’ll find the true meaning of soul mate. LOL JOOOOOOKE I wish you a life full of cheers and laughter and may you won’t ever get enough of me :p. Oh and also, will you kindly and humbly please grow shorter for like an inch so that we’d be the exact same height, thanks.

Here’s to birthdays and blowing candles! Gee time sure does flies :/  I’m also turning 17 soon, and I probably still look like an 8th grader and remain petite (coughcoughSHORTcough). And speaking of birthdays, here’s a hint of my birthday present, any books of the Gossip Girl series will work. Except the first book: Gossip Girl, All I want is everything, aaand Nobody does it better. (DUH As if anyone would give me one)

So that’s that. Remind me again to go watch some movies, having D sleeping over at my crib, and eat less before I get down to my studying mode. (Back in middle school I would say “HA! NERDS!” But now … *sobs*) And I hope everyone enjoy their UAS holidays!

Later skater!

P.S. I got G a birthday present of our photo together in which is dominated by me,  NATURALLY 😉

Wristwatch!

I found this wicked cool band on my flight to Perth, just read it out loud, it’s: Hungry Kids of Hungary!

It’s been a while since I found myself a buttkicking good new music. A slight hint on their (still) only album ESCAPADE. 

Some good tracks:

  • Wristwatch (ME GUSTA)
  • You Ain’t Always There
  • China Will Wait

If you liked Vampire Weekend and Two Door Cinema Club YOU’LL HEART THIS!